What religion/spirituality would be right for me? 10 pts.?

I am an atheist/agnostic but I have not felt a sense of meaning in my life for quite some time. I am looking for a way of life that could really benefit me both mentally, spiritually, and also physically. I don't want a big commitment where I push friends away or anything as such. I want to have that sense of belonging and feeling as followers of religions feel. I used to despise religion due to the false hope factor and many other reasons but now I envy certain ones for the joy it brings them. I can't believe in anything theist, i'm not able to trick myself. Thank you in advance.