Advice or help needed please!?

find a church and set up an appointment with the pastor, he can certainly give you plenty of reasons to go on. If not for the mere fact of the heartache and pain your parents and any other peopl who love you would feel. See the movie its a wonderful life and remember or consider how it would be if you had never been born. try and see it form all angles, yours, parents and friends. and above all God as he sent his son Jesus to suffer and die for you. Seems like that one alone is pretty important.